Lost my Doll

And I've lost my doll

I lost my doll

I lost my games

I lost my days

I lost my hopes

I lost my love

I lost those precious

moments of charm

Those enclosed days

so warm,

I have lost them once

I have lost them all

I have lost my doll

I have lost my doll

Self Definition II

On a silent evening

A glass of close company

A faint pink of love swimming

On the drink of desire.

You drop in

With a sudden unexpected dose

Of increased nervousness

Blushes and shy smiles.

An uncanny smile invisible between us.

Two spoonfuls of you

Added to the reddening liquid

Concentrated solution of :)

A Love Story

You were there with me

Talking about all the odds and ends

Wondering what to do

How to feel, so confused, shy

You would have hidden your face

And smiled by yourself, at yourself.

Each inch of closeness or distance

Bothering you.

The rendezvous making you happy, so special ...

Words on words, never ending lines...

An unknown desire reddening through your skin

An insane thought that makes you crave.

You think of all those past crushes you had,

Wondering have you finally reached your goal?

Your heartbeats will tell you ...

A crazy Jocular song

I must thank Souroneil Lahiri for introducing me to a lovely song. Goodness, the day he sang it for me, I laughed my head off. It was cute, it was silly, it was funny, it was definitely a mood lifter. And he did a wonderful bengali version of it as well. Prem Projonon o Protarona priyotama, Prem Projonon o Protarona. Mindblowing! And he sang it with so much of gusto, that much added to the flavour. And then, the cat comes out of the bag! The song is sung none other than by Kailash Kher, my fave man in sufi-rock! Double dhamaka!!! And when i heard him sing .... dude, he was AWESOME!!!!! LOve, seX aur Dhoka darling, LoVe Sex aur DhokA .... tujhe goli marunga, teri jaan bachaunga, ufff. Then I heard other songs from the film, all of them were crazy man and the music and rhythms were lovely. I loved the Kailash Kher wala songs best, as usual! Today I was down down down down and these songs gave me a HUGE lift. Thanx to Kailash Kher and ofcourse Mr Lahiri the great! I would love it if he drops by and publishes his wondreful bengali version .... Joke, this one is for you, Cheers!!!!

Tujhe goli maarunga, teri jaan bachaunga
Tujhe godh sulaunga, teri neendh udaunga

Tujhe goli maaru teri jaan bachaun
Tujhe godh sulau teri neendh udaun
Saans ye meri bhaamph hai baby garam agan ka jhoka
Saans ye meri bhaamph hai baby garam agan ka jhoka
Kaatke rakh doonga agar tune judne se roka
(love sex aur dhoka darling, love sex aur dhoka)


Tasveer utaarunga
Tasveer utaarunga, mele mein dikhaunga
Jo dekhega uski akhiyan nachwaunga

Tasveer utaarun, mele mein dikhaun
Jo dekhe uski akhiyan nachwaun
Hawas ki tarkari mein dala jalan bulan ka jhonka
Hawas ki tarkari mein dala jalan bulan ka jhonka
Kaatke rakh doonga agar tune judne se roka
(love sex aur dhoka darling, love sex aur dhoka)

PS: I have developed a strange knack for silly crazy mad songs nowadays! Pyaar ka Punchnama has a couple of silly songs. Khoka babu jae is a stupendously irritating yet funny song. I hate it, i like it. I loved DUM maaro DUM though. absolutely splendid!!! The song said everything a girl has to say. It rocks! Tu gandi acchi lagti hai, tu bandi acchi lagti hai ... haha!!!

unspoken

its hard to forget

what i did

or did not

what you did

could

would

should

have

have not

its just hard to forget.

i remember that grimace

the scorn on your face

the jeering laughter

i felt so despised

you cared a bang

me, lost, hurt, pained ...

i remember the softened eyes

the laughter that seeped through

the kindly light i thought was mine

the mistakes

the wrong assumptions

love

like

hate

despair

death

its hard to forget

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and some more words

unspoken

Self Definition 1

I am dark, deep, unfathomable

I mystify you, charm, enthrall you

I am a desire you can hardly contain

Ask the cells in your body who are so pert, eager

I am the call of the deepest green

A buzz, an insatiable hunger within.

I am yours

I am

Id

Ink

On your pages scribbled with every day work

And thousands of words conveyed, communicated

A hundred promises find their way and jot themselves down.

You wake up and run, work and travel and work some more

Have fun, watch tv, a movie, midnight porn or maybe music

Theatre, art galleries, kissing and some sexual flamboyance

Strains on eyes working on your laptop, a glass of water.

You watch the news and sigh or curse or be delighted

A bite of KFC chicken or maybe some bread and omlette,

How does it matter when you slept last night? Dreamt well, didnt you?

A wet plant on your window sill. Some morning sun.

You dont remember me, consciously. Who has time now?

Life goes on. I saw me in you last night, like a stain of ink drop

On your paper of life, scribbled on madly.

Unbound

Separated by miles a million

And distances

That dont promise a whisper

They live

Each on their own

Like souls sent down from heaven

To live a life, a task.

A mystic light remains

A path of hallowed joy

So the souls can walk back

When they close their eyes

In dreams, in prayer or tiresome burdens.

They meet over celestial ether

And clasp each other

Eager and soft,

The home of peace on his bosom,

The beating of his heart

Her soft breath and tears wet

Their absolute quiet understanding.

His fingers caress her tresses

Smoothen her troubled lines

And kiss her closed eyes.

She holds him with passion

And a gentle reassurance of strength.

His tired, saddened face seek solace

His emptiness seeks her so deeply,

Their faces merge into one absolution.

The stars sing.

Locked in each other's arms,

They seek peace -- love of life.

Heartbeats coalesce and silence

Assumes a high completeness.

They rock gently ...

...

...

Till so far a voice calls out,

Or duties call,

Responsibilities, promises, work

Realms of stone and leaves,

A life to be lived,

A task ahead.

The celestial dream dissolves

Like circles on the face of water.

Ever so lightly

Like a promise of togetherness

At an eye's closure

Or a small intense kiss

Till we meet again ....